Faith on the Cliff: Leaving God as your Only Option

As any top-rope climber knows, there are only two things you can trust on the climb: the rope and the belayer. Your life depends on the strength of the rope and the attention of the person holding the rope. Too much would be fatal. Too little keeps you from where you need to go. Having someone invested in your ascent and your making it to the ground safely is what makes the climb possible.

What’s your back up plan? When things don’t work, do you reach for more control? Do your your fists tighten on anything that’s within reach? Or, does resignation set in? In the vein of not being disappointed, do you drop your head and declare, “This is just the way it is”? Or, do you go nuts on the people in your life?

When things don’t work, what do you do?

Over the last few weeks, the curtain has been pulled back on how much I don’t trust God. I trust Him. . . to a point, but not enough to drop my back-up plan. Mostly, I rely on my computer. My theory is . . . “Well, I’ll just find it,” and I will spend hours looking for the needs of my heart. Amazon, the classifieds, Facebook, Twitter, LinkedIn. I’ll google anything that I need. I am absolutely sure that if I can’t see it in front of me, I’ll find it online.

(Oh ye of little faith)

My faith in God as Father is lacking. My experience of what I have believed to be Him incredibly rocky, and in my heart, I’ve drawn some lines in the sand. I’ll trust you here but __________ not here. And, then  I wonder why God feels distant and I feel so alone.

Recently, I rubbed out those lines. I looked my Father full on in the face and said, “I am here. I am open and I am ready.” There were no expectations. I wanted to hear the truth and He spoke. Clearly. He made me face some lies I’d been believing and I had to let go of what’s been holding me back. Only after doing that could He guide me. And, for once, I left His guidance as my only option.

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For once, I am not striving, not stressing and not freaking out over what’s next. There were a couple of days where I thought, “What if this doesn’t work out?” Then, after a couple of days, I thought, “Well, I’ll do whatever He tells me to do next.”

What a thought.

I don’t know how this is going to work out but the only way to find out is to walk it. I am on this path. My feet are dusty. I may get tired but I am here, I am open and I am not looking for another out.

Trust the Father. Trust the path. Another way may look incredibly tempting, but it won’t get you where you want to go. Trust Him on the ascent and on the way down. He is invested in your story. He wants you to do this well.

Let me know how it goes. I want to hear your glory story. I want to hear how God came through for you.

Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to
figure out everything on your own. 
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
he’s the one who will keep you on track.
~Proverbs 3:5-6 (MSG)
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4 thoughts on “Faith on the Cliff: Leaving God as your Only Option

  1. I’m in a similar spot myself. I suppose ultimately it is a lack of faith, but more immediately it is a fear of what is next. 2 in laws with cancer, the transmission going out of one car, my husband being bumped down to a part time job, and the same going back to school. I know God will take care of us. I know it will be okay, but my heart is bruised from the beating it has taken. I have faith in his provision, but I’m lacking in faith his plan. Maybe I’m lacking faith in his goodness. Ouch. That’s tough to say out loud. Thanks for making me think.

    1. It’s so important to really see what the fears are. When light is shed on the lies, we can see them for what they are and (if you can) willingly let them go. I am praying for you during these days and know that it is God’s intention to see you through safely. It doesn’t mean that things will be perfect, but He cares for your heart and for your family. Be careful what you declare God to be doing. God (in my opinion) does not cause cancer but given permission, He can be in the midst of it. Take care of your self. Self care is huge right now. Be careful what you believe. My heart is for you. So is His.

      1. I don’t think God caused any of those things, but allowed them to happen as the natural course of events in the life of the car, my in-laws, the company my husband works for, etc. It is just how life works sometimes. Since we are following His plan, I know we will be okay. I don’t know what okay will look like, but we will be okay. Life happens and sometimes life is hard. It is hard at the moment and my fears keep going on with how hard it will continue to be. God is bigger than my fears though. So those fears just need to be quiet.

      2. Oh girl. Out of kindness, I have to say that the fear doesn’t (in my experience) go away. But, I can choose to respond to fear or I can choose to respond to faith. Both our invitations. It’s up to you what you’ll follow.

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