Life gets so heavy. Some days, most days, it can feel beyond what I can physically carry. It's not one thing that looms large over my day. It's all the tiny things added up that can make me feel just a bit woozy: Motherhood, Wifehood, Careerhood. All the Hoods need all the attention and I … Continue reading Joy As Armor: How Pineapple Leggings and Unicorn Socks Save Me
A few years ago, we took our son to the optometrist. Just a check up. He'd never complained about his vision. We just thought it was a good idea. He needed glasses. Badly. Looking back, I thought about the moments that we'd become frustrated with him, how he seemed to bang into things unnecessarily or … Continue reading Filters: Part One – That’s Me
The thought comes to me at first through a weed. Lots of them. Creeping in and taking over my wild, hairy garden. As I push the shovel under the weed, the thought springs like a spiral, upward into my brain. This is the problem, I think to myself. The problem is that we are not dealing with … Continue reading What Would Jesus Do Now?
Empty - It describes something, it's an action, and it's a thing. Boy, is it a thing. I have a lot of Empty's in my life. We all do. Intended or not, the majority of humanity has at least one Empty. Or, is afraid of one. It seems that a lot of fear is wrapped … Continue reading Empty Spaces
Three sessions in and I panicked. Things were going well. Good questions were being asked, validation given, truth was being shared. But, towards the end of each consultation, my inner child would get fidgety. Eyes darting, hands wringing. Internally, I was terrified. Please don't say it. Please don't say it. Don't tell me I'm doing well. Don't … Continue reading Don’t Tell Me I’m Doing Well: The Cry of the Stumbling Woman
I love our Christmas tree. I love being in it's light. I will turn off every light in the house just to get the full affect. Christmas lights evoke meaning. We have much to look forward to. Good things are coming. That's the promise, right? A Christmas tree lights the way to Christmas. We anticipate and are … Continue reading Light Matters: An Explanation and Examination
I wish you were here. I wish I could hug you and make a lunch and a fresh pot of coffee and sit with you, face to face. I would love to see your face. There is something so incredibly wonderful about spilling my guts to you and knowing that you are treasuring all of … Continue reading You